With these words I thee Wed.
Harmony
Lost in the shadows of my doubt
Who would believe in me
Anyway?
By any means
Would I try to wed the cry in my heart with the words that birthed it
Words that gave
More than an A paper or honorable mention
No accolade could demand my attention more than the delight of my Father.
I remember the first time I saw it
A video, a snapshot, an experience
A woman
Who looked like me
Wore kinks and sneaks like me
She wore confidence in her skin
And courage on her shoulders
She awakened in me
An inexplicable calling
A feeling, a desire
But who was I kidding?
A writer? A poet? An artist?
Me?
Please, the only thing I was ever good at was stumbling through life
Being absent
Playing the part
Writing- as simple as it seems
Was a challenge for me.
Every thought that said I was better
Drowned
Every time I picked up a pen my fingers crippled
I cringed at correction and criticism
Constructive or productive
It was all the same
But something in me wanted to know.
To see the beautiful truth on display
In such a way
As to change hearts and minds.
I wanted it
The absolute matrimony
The impossible possibilities
Of words coupled with truth
Intertwined with light.
It only gave
Gave me goosebumps
Gave me hope and happiness
Gave me insight into life.
It felt like home
Like I was made for it
I was created for this
And when I had written it-the piece that ended my resistance
It birthed in me a perfect marriage
Of talent and calling
Passion and purpose
Gift and giving
It became my increase and my noose
So the battle between belief and doubt heightened
The drought only made it worse
The thirst in my bones
For assurance and then some
Clammed my mind shut to reasonable thought
Though, I kept going
In spite of my mind’s protest
My heart saw otherwise.
And today I make it plain
With this Gift.
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