decisions decisions
each come with its own set
of resolutions.
thoughts of treacherous and benevolent
outcomes torture me.
I wish I could hold onto just one
pick it one up and take it home
my steps are hidden
cloaked in darkness
robed in shadows.
my eyes are both open and closed –
vision unchanged
the uncertainty plagues me
when simple decisions arise.
it’s the silence that cripples me
the space in between
I never know if my next step
is true
my direction may be wrong
my mind has every right to change
the result could be worse than
when I began
it doesn’t feel good.
my emotions hold me
hostage from new choices
and paralyze my feet from its forward movement
Stagnate.
decisions decisions
I pray doubt don’t drown me
with indecisiveness and deceit
I pray hope brings me home
to happy habitation
I pray certainty searches me of all secret questioning
and then saves me from myself
I pray surety encompasses me, truth backs me
up, and wisdom break through
I pray failure flees my peripheral and vanishes
from my sight
I pray fear run scared and find
its rest in hiding
I pray prayer be my
weapon when emotions blare louder
than truth
I pray obedience be
my first choice regardless
of my freedom
I pray my next steps are
bold even if
my flesh disagrees
I pray
I will go on.
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